resolutions

Matthew 18.2.

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JOY - Jesus, Others, Yourself.

I think I will follow my boyfriend in suit, and begin blogging on a more regular basis.

Easy to fixate on the bad, but so much more important to focus on the beautiful.

The notion of being in love - is a funny thing.

Everyone feels like quitting these days.

Galatians 6.9-10: And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith.

I'm not sure what that means anymore. I've been doing this for 2.5 years already, and I'm finding that I don't have enough strength of my own to do it for much longer. The human soul is only so limited in its ability to care for others so selflessly, and the systemic problems of the inner city, education, and human depravity are wearing me down.

Sometimes, I look at my students' work and I am just amazed by everything they have been able to produce and accomplish. Moments like those make me feel like I belong where I am. But these days, it's like pulling teeth and I wonder how much of an impact is actually being made and whether what I do really matters at all.

I feel like I'm turning my back on it all.

Usurping idols. Or something like that.